A Little Recess

“I am  gullible but i know the difference between being friendly to flirting.”

It all started when you said you like me and treat me in a way that was more than a friend should do. 

You updated me  with every event of your day you surely wont do to ‘just’ a friend. 

Every day you greeted me with that boyish smile.

You were too aware of my existence, you knew every movement, every expression on my face. 

You didn’t mind getting late and still wait for me under the morning sky, surrounded with noise and smoke from the traffic.

You came to know my mood and emotion. You were there to comfort me, how much I said I was fine you knew I wasn’t. 

You skipped work before just to spend more time with me. 

You called me your baby. It sounded so cliche and corny but, truth to be told, it gave me butterflies and an impish quirk at the corners of my mouth.

You gave me time and effort that nobody had given me.

You’ve become my escape from the darkness of my past. You pulled me out from where I was imprisoned and made me trust once more.

You’ve become my peace and you said so I was to you.

Then…one day you opened up about your past as I listened to your story.

It was a short narration introducing ‘her’ in my mind. 

She was seemed to be your everything. It wasn’t a surprised as she was probably the first real one.

I wouldn’t lie, it alarmed me in some extent but I kept it hidden, considering it was unnecessary to have.

I buried the thought in the recesses of my mind, and simply relish with the joy I had that I didn’t possess prior. 

I was on the edge, full of uncertainty and fear before you came into my life. But you’ve become the light that outshadowed every dark.

I was hesitant at first but there was this burst of will that told me to start anew and give it a try.

And it was happiness that ensued.

The shimmer in your eyes, how your lips curved into a bright smile, it was so real. I thought it was genuine…I thought it was true. 

But.

But I was afraid it was not.

Then things went downhill, it was so fast I was left unprepared. 

Suddenly you realized that was not what you wanted. Suddenly you realized you were craving and longing for something from your past. Suddenly you realized it’s still her you love.

Suddenly…

You realized I was not her and will never be her.

And then you just stopped…And then you just completely forgot whatever we had. And after that it was always her and her alone, like I was never been in the picture once.

Denying anything we had to anyone who asked. I was brutally removed from your memory.

Replaced and recognized as ‘just a friend’. 

It was like you had  been hauled from the spell, as if all the magic had ran out.  And just then and there, you looked with those blankness in your eyes and left me there like it was something normal

Like…“Hey, I’m done with you, thanks.” 

In the blink of an eye, your enthusiasm faded, your eyes dulled, your expression hardened with indfferent. Your feelings died.

A sudden pause of confusion…

And then I realized…you were just a temporary break from a storm.  

AN: Hi, just a little thing to update this blog. My muse is pestering me to write something, so here it is. I’ve been away from writing for so long, so I’m so sorry if you find this rough.